Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Today is the Day



Today is the day I hoped would come.

Today is the day I say, "It's been 5 years and I'm making it."

Today is the day I tried so hard to see through the thick fog of my early grief.

Today is the day I dedicate to Lucy.

Today is the day Vic doesn't go to work and we celebrate our family.

Today is the day I think back on the amazing week we've had. Mother's Day, Lucy's accident day, Vic's birthday... and I do so with happiness and not a heavy heart.

Today is the day Jenny Towery and her family tied bows on Lucy's tree at the park.

Today is the day (5 years ago) that 2 people in California received new organs that saved their lives.

Today is the day our friend went to the cemetery to visit Lucy and texted us telling us that Sister Monson is going to be buried across from Lucy!

Today is the day we go to the cemetery as a family to have a picnic--wearing pink and talking of spiritual things to our children.

Today the weather is beautiful. It reminds me so much of this same day 5 years ago. It stings.

Today we go to see Les Mis at the Pioneer Theatre and get to watch my cute Zoe Heiden perform. There is no question we will cry.

Today is the day I cry for all who suffer in the world. All loss and pain. Especially the children.

Today tells me that my mom and sister were right. It does get better. It will get better.

Today is the day I can finally say, "It's been 5 years and I've learned and grown so much. It's been far too difficult at times, but I'm so thankful I didn't give up."

Today is the day I feel so much love and support from family and friends.

Today is a sacred, special day.

Today. Today.



29 comments:

  1. Smally, I just love you. That's the best I can say. I just love you. I'll be forever sorry Lucy isn't here. May the space of the day stay sacred.

    Eldon

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  2. Today many are thinking of you and sending pink-ribbon-wrapped hugs your way...we love you!

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  3. No other words except, LOVE YOU, MOLLY!

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  4. Wow. That was so great to read. It is amazing that you've come this far. Really. Nothing short of miraculous.
    So proud of you and I bet Lucy is too. Hugs.

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  5. SO incredibly beautiful. 5 years. What a milestone. You are beautiful.

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  6. I can't think of anything to say but wanted to comment so I will just say Thank you for sharing your life and inspiring me.

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  7. This gives me hope, Molly. I still cannot fathom surviving five whole years without my child, but watching your survival - your growth - and strength - gives me hope and strength, too.
    Love you.

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  8. Thinking of you today dearest. Hugs to you all.

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  9. From one parent to another. From one parent to another who has an angel waiting for them. Hugs to you on this special day. She is your guide through this world until she gets to show you hers.

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  10. I admire your strength so much. You're amazing, Molly!

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  11. My heart is with you Molly! I hope you feel your precious angel today and know of her love and how proud she is of you. Thanks for all you have done to bless the lives of others as you have experienced the greatest heartache a mother could experience. I hope our daughters have become friends. Love you!!

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  12. What a beautiful post...I can't begin to imagine how diffcult and hard it is to go through what you've been through but you are right...it somehow gets a little easier. I still don't think time heals all wounds...time just gives us the opportunity to deal with our grief and heartache and find a place to put it where it won't be right there in front of us every day, every hour, every minute. Today IS a sacred and special day.

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  13. That is a beautiful post and gives me so much hope that this trial we live with does keep getting easier. Thank you for sharing your amazing faith, hope, love, strength and experiences. I'm so glad I can call your family friends. Love you all!

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  14. God bless you and your beautiful family on this day

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  15. She is just so incredibly beautiful.

    Five years. I have no words. You are amazing. Lucy is amazing.

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  16. Thinking of you and your family today, Molly. I'm glad that you're comforted and in such a good place. So many hugs and good thoughts to you.

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  17. What a beautiful little girl your little Lucy is. Praying for blessings of peace and comfort to you and your family today.

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  18. I hope your day is beautiful, like your Lucy.

    Hugs.

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  19. My Dad just passed away a month ago and I have been having a hard few days. It makes me happy to think of Lucy in heaven with him, he is such a wonderful Grandpa with alot of spunk to match Lucy's. Your words give me hope:)Thank You!

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  20. Almost started to cry reading this. There have been several nights I've stayed up, going through your older posts and marveling at all you've been through. What strength. What a post this is! Sending love and hugs to your family.

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  21. You are such a beautiful person and Molly is a beautiful little girl. Your story is incredibly hard to read but you give show so much strength and integrity. Thank you for sharing and I hope your day is as beautiful as you are! A friend in East Texas, Pam.

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  22. Oh Molly and fam! Love and kisses for your amazing strength, example and endurance. You made it, and are continuing to make it. Thanks for everything you are to so many people!!!!!
    -Jackie

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  23. I've been reading your blog for 5 years and a few days. This was a beautiful post and you are a truly wonderful person.

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  24. So beautifully written! So glad I saw you on Studio 5, Lucy and your journey have truly touched me. Thank you!

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  25. I love that Sister Monson's grave is near Lucy. It seems so appropriate and fitting. So proud of you for what you have been able to accomplish and do over the last 5 years. I am sure it is still extremely difficult and always will be. Love you.

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  26. Beautifully written. You've been in my heart. Love and miss you. xoxo

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  27. You are great. Just beautiful. I am glad this week has more hope in it than previous years. ;) Thinking of you for sure.

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  28. I am so glad that I could come across your blog with this post. You may not remember me, but we met at Sugarhouse Park several weeks ago. I actually was reminded of your blog you mentioned to me when a friend posted an article of yours on Facebook, "How my body learned to love me." It is amazing how as we cross each others' lives, even a few minutes can make and impact. So, I wanted to thank you for already leaving an impact on me. I am so sorry for your loss and wish you the best.

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  29. I know I'm behind, but I am just reading this post...I have chills and tears. Can I say that I am so proud of you for how far you've come?? It has been so inspiring to watch you grow and teach all of us how to be survivors. You are strong and beautiful. Last, I will never get over how perfect that picture of Lucy is. Not ever. Pure and perfect! xox

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