Friday, June 8, 2012

Between Life and Death


So much joy going on here I was overcome...



Those are happy, grateful tears. To see two of my living children together, sharing such love--it was too beautiful for words. I have waited so long for this moment. 





So much of life happens gradually, slowly, painfully even. It is the day in and day out grind--the waiting and growing and learning-- that we don't even notice it passing us by. 

It is all that "in between" stuff where most of life is lived. It can be boring and monotonous and overwhelming...mixed with wonderful highlights and joy as well. 

But birth and death come in an instant. You are here one moment and gone the next. Or vice versa. It's amazing how instant those moments are. Like lightning in the middle of a perfectly clear day. It stops us in our tracks and we  re-evaluate everything we thought we knew. 

I'm thankful for the lightening bolt moments that remind me where I really am, who I really am, and what all this wandering about is for. 


24 comments:

  1. I can't imagine the range of emotions you're feeling.

    Thanks for sharing the pics, and congratulations on your new addition!

    As a fellow redhead, I love Zoe's hair! So cute!

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  2. This is lovely and so is your new daughter. Congratulations to your little family and lots of happy thoughts and good wishes. Much love.

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  3. so happy for you. your zoe is SO PRECIOUS!! I LOVE HER FACE :)

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  4. Molly,
    Such a beautifully put post! So true, so true. Congrats on your lovely little Zoe. A perfect addition to your beautiful family.

    Love you,
    Stephanie

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  5. Oh Molly!

    I prayed and prayed and prayed that Lucy would plant a kiss right on top your new baby girl's head so that you would know they had been together. So that you would feel her love. So that you would know she was okay. If I am not mistaken, under that beautiful red hair crowing Zoe June's royal head is a perfect little red kiss.

    God is good all the time. I too am overcome with joy!

    Nicely done Lucy, nicely done!

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  6. Congratulations Molly! Zoe is beautiful and I can picture her big sis constantly checking in with you all! She's gorgeous!!! xo Meghan

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  7. Beautifuly said. Your family is so sweet. I can see the joy. Big brother and little sister....aaww. Reminds me of Rob Thomas's song "Little Wonders." Our lives are made in these small hours, these little wonders these twist and turns of fate, time falls away but these small hours still remain......our lives are made like a tapestry with bits and pieces of time. Your daughter will always be part of your tapestry but now you have two more pieces of preciousness for your tapestry. They are all so wonderful, so beautiful. I hope you have a most amazing journey with your family. Much joy and happiness to all of you.

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  8. Molly, I know your soul won't be completely healed until you're holding Lucy again. But I pray this little angel is a Healer for you. That Zoe reminds you enough of your firstborn, to know that Lucy is ever present, and ever waiting for a sweet reunion one day...May this new little beauty bring you all the joy, the life, the re-invigoration, the hope, the love, and the healing that you deserve. Your family is beautiful, and now complete (with just one waiting in the wings, ever waiting for her cue.) Love you and your beautiful family. May you find joy in every little moment. Something tells me that you'll savor it more than most.

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  9. And on another note, I wanted to thank you so much for your blog. My friend's sister in law, who just lost her sweet baby girl in a freak car accident, has been savoring every last word the last few weeks since its happened. She is pregnant with her second child, a boy, and she feels a kinship with you that she can find with no other. I have to let you know how your words have gotten her through, are still getting her through, her own personal HELL. You are an inspiration, and will receive many accolades in Heaven for being able to share your grief so candidly and so well. You are loved and appreciated by those who don't know you, more than you know.

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  10. the veil is never thinner than at birth and I am certain those on the other side are closest right at that moment. I am sure Zoe and Lucy are best friends already!

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  11. This took my breath away. Beautiful.

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  12. I love your blog and LOVE this post! Congratulations! Enjoy that precious and beautiful girl your family has been waiting for. A new baby is such a gift, and this one especially. Love from a stranger in No VA.

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  13. Dear Zoe - Although you can never fill the hole in your Mommy's heart, thank you for at least helping the healthy part grow a little and allowing the joy to over-proportion the pain for a little while.

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  14. Probably my favorite post of yours. Love you guys.
    - Chris

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  15. Oh Molly, I feel so tender for you right now! The joy of having a new, beautiful spirit so recently received from heaven, knowing that not long ago, two sisters were together, and now you get to hold such a sweet one! Lots of emotions! Congrats, new mom of three beautiful children!!

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  16. Congrats Molly & Vic! I am beyond overjoyed for you and your family! I have been following your blog for a few years and this is just the icing on the cake! I'm so happy for you guys and your new sweet little one, and I love her name!
    Love from Driggs, ID
    Avery Eddins
    (Andrea Hawkes' little sister-remember me?)

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  17. What a proud big brother. Both adorable. Congratulations!

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  18. One more comment.......Zoe looks like her mama......with the bonus red hair. She is a beauty......

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  19. What a tear jerker! These pictures are so special. Thanks for sharing.

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  20. That picture of Vic snuggling Zoe just went straight to my heart--it both broke it and warmed it. So much love and congratulations to you all! xoxox Laura

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