My name is Amber and we currently live in San Jose, CA. I have been married for almost 4 years and my husband Peter and I have an 18 month old son. I’ve been meaning to write to you for awhile but never really had the courage or I guess reason to until now.
I started following your blog probably a little over a year ago. I learned about your story in Relief Society when one of our fabulous teachers taught a lesson about those who lost children. I can’t remember if that was the only thing the lesson was about but that is definitely the one thing that stuck out to me. I think at the time I was either pregnant with my first child or he was just an infant, but I remember finding your blog and not being able to read it through my tears. I couldn’t even imagine what you had gone through! Your strength and faith truly inspired me and I prayed for you and your family. I appreciated your raw-ness and felt joy in how you keep Lucy’s memory alive. I cried for you and with you.
However, it wasn’t until this last week when I miscarried our second child at almost 11 weeks that I realized how much I really appreciated you and all you do. I turned to A Good Grief for support and felt comfort in the experiences of others. It really is amazing how many people go through such terrible losses, whether it be during pregnancy, immediately after or months, even years down the line. And it’s such an invaluable resource to be able to share those feelings with others so that those who do not know where to turn have support.
The loss is still like a fresh wound and I know it in no way compares to losses others have faced, it was still devastating to me and I’m still trying to figure out how to deal with it. I am so grateful for the support of my husband, my family and the church. I am so thankful to a loving Heavenly Father and am trying my hardest to trust in Him during this difficult time. And finally, I am so thankful for people like you who are so willing to share their feelings and experiences so that others don’t feel so alone.