Although we've never formally met, we see each other about twice a year in the hallways at church when I come to visit my in-laws in Park City. I'm pretty sure we've exchanged the sideways "that person looks familiar" glance a couple of times. Unfortunately, I've either been wrangling my kids or not had the cojones to come up and say hi. :)
I have had the honor of getting to hold your precious Lucy just once. Even though it was only for 5 minutes, I have never forgotten her. You were gracious enough to indulge me during sacrament meeting and let me hold her when she was just a baby. I had just found out I was pregnant for the first time, so you can imagine my uterus was going crazy seeing your beautiful, blonde-haired little angel. Unfortunately for me, haha, she cried and just wanted to go back to her momma. I could tell she loved you more than anything in the world and I couldn't wait to be on the receiving end of that kind of love.
I also held Peter in the hallway this last Christmas. He was trying to escape someone who was watching him for you. Let me tell ya, that kid has ENERGY. Cute little stinker.
Your courage to share such private pain is really inspiring. I started following your blog shortly after Lucy's passing and whenever I need a reminder that I can endure my own trials, I come read a snippet from you. Although I've never suffered a loss like yours, we came close when my oldest, Jonathan was 9 months old. He started choking on a piece of freeze-dried yogurt and stopped breathing. My husband didn't know what to do and luckily I was able to fish out the food with my finger. He spent the next 3 days researching everything on infant first aid. It was one of the scariest moments of my life. My heart aches for you and I wish I could give you a hug through the computer.
Next time I see you I'll give you one for real.
*I told Alicia that she better come introduce herself next time she's in Park City. HOWEVER, I told her it is still on the table as to whether or not we can actually be friends--because she looks a little too young AND BEAUTIFUL! Holy smokes.