In The News

Sunday, July 25, 2010

I had a wonderful experience being interviewed by Emily Schmul, of the Mormon Times section of Deseret News recently. She wrote a beautiful article about our little Lucy.

You can read the article HERE.

I hadn't talked about Lucy in a while. Speaking with Emily was healing for me. It was so freeing to be able to share my thoughts and feelings over the phone without fear of being judged. I just spit it all out. I could say "Lucy" as many times as I wanted. I hung up the phone and sobbed. I realized that I don't talk about her as much as I would like.

We had the Hibbert Family over last weekend. They lost their little boy, Mason, after he choked on a pretzel. They have become very dear friends to us. Our stories are almost identical. Charlotte Hibbert was asking me if I ever have the overwhelming urge to say Lucy's name. To just speak it and let the sound fall from my lips. She said she sometimes yells her son's name while she's on a run, or going down a water slide, or out in the mountains. "MASON!" She just needs to hear it.

Interestingly, I had never thought of it in that way before. I have felt the emotion associated with that desire to speak Lucy's name--to feel her alive and near me. But I had never put it into words, or better yet, action. My interview with Emily made that possible for me, if only for a moment, "Lucy, Lucy, Lucy." Charlotte said one of the most comforting things anyone said to her at Mason's viewing, was from a woman who had lost a child nearly 20 years previously. She took Charlotte by the shoulders, looked her in the eyes and said, "I still miss her. Every. Single. Day. I say goodnight to her as I go to sleep and I say good morning as soon as I wake up."

I think I'm going to start doing that. It has always been in my heart, but it is time to start saying it out loud.


  1. I come to your blog often to get strength. Thank you for that. It's only been 8 months since we lost our little Luke. I think I will institute that in my life too. Saying goodnight and goodmorning to him. It is so hard to know what to do, because everything I do is painful to some degree. Ya know. . . .What a journey this is. Thanks again!
    Jan Taylor

  2. Beautiful article. Touching post.

  3. Molly... you should always do what's in your heart!

  4. What a touching article. Thanks for sharing. I love how they say that Lucy's light shines on in the person of her younger brother named Peter.

    I can't even begin to imagine how many lives Miss Lucy and her Mommy and Daddy have touched through Lucy's story.

    Wishing that you continue to have strength and endurance as time passes.


  5. What a marvelous idea. It just sets right in the heart. And, it keeps her close! Lovely Article!

  6. What a wonderful article! You are amazing. Love this idea...I think I will do the same. Good morning and good night Wyatt. Love it when I can say his name. Thanks for the idea and for sharing such a great article on grief and your sweet Lucy. Sending my love your way.

  7. Char is my husband's sister. Not long after they lost Mason, she mentioned your blog and I have followed you ever since. Thank you so much for blogging through your grief, highs and lows and love for Lucy. It has helped me to understand so much better what Char and Dave are going through. You are amazing. Best wishes and love to you.

  8. I hope this doesn't come across the wrong way, but I envy all the opportunities you have had in sharing your Lucy with so many. So many people know of your story and Lucy is still affecting so many lives! My husband and I would someday love to start a ranch where people who have lost their loved ones can come get a break from the world, but until that happens, I feel like my opportunities to share Caydin with others is so limited, and it makes me sad sometimes because I often feel my little family are the only ones that remember him. I think it is so wonderful that you are able to share sweet Lucy in so many ways that help so many people!

  9. The article was very touching. I don't think you ever need to apologize for talking about, bringing up, or speaking her name.

  10. You don't know me, but I feel like I know a part of you. I found your blog through comments left to someone I know, whom lost their baby just this month. I have a little Lucy, just over one (born June 24th, 2009). As our family came to the climax of a heartwrenching struggle, I found myself ready to have another little girl. I named her because her name means "light". She truly is a light. I just want you to know that I appreciate your honesty, especially the post in which you added a video and asked a question. Thank you.

  11. I loved this article. It was beautifully written. I can only imagine how much you need to hear Lucy's name. I hope it is continuing to do your heart good to talk to her, and repeat her name. Peter will know his sister and I am sure she will always be the light there to guide you.

  12. molly you did such a great job in the article. thank you for being you.


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