Dearest Little Peter Boy,
I didn't know that your sister, Lucy, would have only one birthday. Just one. We had a small party for her. And it was sweet and wonderful. But after she passed away, I realized what a big deal birthdays are. Another year alive. Another year with our loved ones. And I vowed that I would make your first birthday a huge celebration. And we did! It was all I could have hoped for and more.
Mommy's friend Rachael, was very generous in opening her big beautiful home for us to use. You are loved by so many people that we needed a lot of room for all that love. Over 50 people came and you were in heaven. So many kids to play with, so many things to explore! Although your actual birthday is not until April 8th, I am writing this birthday letter to you now since mommy will be flying to Boston on your birthday. I will miss you so much, but you and daddy will join me two days later.
There was so much delicious food at the party. Mommy couldn't stop eating the brie with cranberries, walnuts, and brown sugar. You enjoyed the deviled eggs and daddy, of course, drank the salsa like it was soup. I worked hard on the days leading up to the party sewing a felt birthday banner for you. It's going to be a wonderful tradition to hang that banner for every family birthday, including your angel sister's.
Rachael helped me plan the Easter Egg hung, and Brasilia brought a huge pinata for the bigger kids to enjoy. Everyone had so much fun talking and eating and playing. Although it was an Easter themed party, there was nothing but white snow out the windows. It reminded me how much color and life you have brought into our family even when the outside world is cold and blustery. You have been the epitome of new life and new birth to me.
Peter, you have such a sweet disposition. You rarely cry, you are patient, and you just go with the flow. You crawl at lightening speed and love exploring the world around you. Especially electronics and gadgets. You want to know how things work. You love eating goldfish! Definitely your favorite food. You have eight teeth already! You are so close to walking but you refuse to walk unless I am holding BOTH of your hands.
I love walking into your room after you wake up from a nap. You have such a beaming smile on your face. You are a big boy too! Already wearing 18 month clothes. You've got to start walking soon or you'll break mommy's back. Daddy likes to tell you that you are 1/5 of mommy's weight...so be gentle with her!
You have loads of beautiful hair. I finally gave in yesterday and trimmed your bangs so you could see a little better. What a handsome little man you are. Daddy and I pray for you every night. We thank Heavenly Father for sending you to us. This past year you have helped us heal so much and given us so much hope. We love your giggle, we love watching you watch Baby Einstein and Elmo's World. We love how much you enjoy reading. You also love pushing things around the floor..balls and cars especially.
The older you get, the more you look like your sister. You point to her picture all the time. I hope you will know her and have a special relationship with her. How lucky you are to have a guardian angel. She will always look out for you and protect you. I pray you will make good choices in your life.
Thank you for being such a brave young man. Daddy and I have held you and cried many nights because we are so grateful for you. You are a reminder that life goes on. We are scared to ever lose you, but we know it is not up to us. I have a feeling you will be here for many years to come. I can't wait to take you to the zoo this summer, to kick a ball with you in our new backyard, to continue watching you learn and grow. It makes my heart swell with so much joy.
I love you, son. Happy, Happy first birthday. What a wonderful world we live in. I love seeing you discover it. I hope to show it to you through my eyes of hope and appreciation. Thank you for the Easter kisses. You are such a smart little boy with a giant, wonderful spirit. What a handsome devil! I love you forever and ever--
*To view all the photos from the party, go HERE