Wednesday, May 20, 2009

All is well.

We just returned from Los Angeles and had a wonderful time seeing old friends, (and surprise visits from family!) sitting on the beach, eating wonderful food, talking, being together as a family, going on walks, attending the temple, and celebrating Vic's birthday. (Which is officially today).

My sister is vacationing in the the Middle East and I miss her.

I fear for this coming Friday. The 22nd of May--how could it possibly be here again?

The crab apple trees are showing their bright pink blossoms and I am remembering....
Remembering things I don't want to remember but have to because I love her. Reality has to be faced eventually. But I must say, angels must be very near because we are surviving quite well. Peter is helping so much.

Two friends lost loved ones in the past week. Lyndi's 21 yr. brother passed away very, very suddenly and unexpectedly, and Emily's former sister- in- law died of a drug overdose at 29. My heart breaks with them.

I promise that life is fragile. I promise you won't regret cherishing everyday. I promise you won't take any earthly possessions with you when you go. I promise that love and kindness are all that matter. I promise.

Time keeps marching.

Happy Birthday, honey bun. I hope you enjoyed your surprise party in L.A. (of course you did, I've asked you a million times..." Were you surprised? Do you love me? Was it fun? Are you happy?") I know it isn't easy having your birthday just two days before Lucy's passing. I know it isn't easy being married to me. But we're going to make it. We are blessed with so many wonderful friends who enrich our lives and carry us through. You deserve so much more than anything I could ever do for you---but I will do my best by loving you with all my liver and lungs. I have no doubt Lucy and Peter are proud to call you Daddy. Just like I'm proud to call you Husband.


    Know that we are praying for and thinking about you,in your joys and sorrows.

  2. Sorry to hear that your good friends lost family members recently... you know just how hard that is.

    I always have thought that it is cruel that we celebrate Madison's arrival... on the 22nd... while you are experiencing overwhelming loss of your 'little sunshine'.

    I am so sorry...
    words cannot express the feeling of sadness for you in my heart. I hope your tiny angel will be close by... I am sure she will.

    One thing I have always feared is losing a child. I watched my MiaMaid leader [back in the day] lose two boys within two months.
    Both of her boys had not reached the age of accountability... to be guaranteed a place in heaven... wow!

    May you find peace with that knowledge.


  3. What a cute baby chubba, looks he is doing well!

  4. Happy Birthday...and I {heart} the beach pictures!

  5. Peter is beautiful...so much like his sister. I sat looking at and comparing their pictures. They are both just a little piece of heaven on earth. Happy Birthday Vic! I'm glad things are going well and completely understand the difficulties ahead. I've recently helped my friend celebrate the 21st anniversary of the passing of her daughter (she died at age 3 years, 4 days). We celebrate her every year with pictures, videos, memories. It was wonderful for the children that followed and never knew her. Hopefully one day May 22nd will be a celebration of Lucy with more joy than sadness. Bless you all!

  6. Look at you, you hot little momma! Looks like you guys had a wonderful time.
    love you!

  7. You don't know me...but I came upon your blog last summer. Congrats on your baby. I hope the anniversary is ok for all of you.

  8. What a truly beautiful baby!! You look amazing and beautiful!!
    Be strong on the anniversary, and know that every day is an anniversary that you've made it through that day, never to be lived again, for better or worse!!
    All our thoughts, prayers and love!

  9. I am so happy for you that "All is Well". I look forward to that day when I can also say those words. My heart will be with you on that day and always.

  10. First of all, I have to say, HOW IS IT POSSIBLE you Look so FAB so quickly?!? It doesn't surprise me. Second of all, how is it possible you are so amazing and strong and gifted with words and sweetness? It doesn't surprise me. I wish there was something I could do for you on Lucy's day. . . something, anything. I could take Peter's Newbie pictures on Lucy's day, I noticed you don't have any on your blog. . . have you had them done? Can I do them as an anniversary present? What do you have planned? I have been praying for you non stop and you have been in my thoughts every single day.

  11. Just know that you are in our prayers more than ever the next couple of days!

  12. Hi Molly- Do you remember me- I'm Andrea Hawkes' younger sister, Avery. I've been following your blog for a little while now, I hope you don't mind. I'm so amazed at the hope and comfort that you and Vic give to all of us who know you- even those of us who don't know you very well. I'm so happy that you have a sweet baby boy in your life. I have three of them myself, and you make me appriciate them so much more than I would have on my own. Thank you for your wonderful words and for sharing your experiences at this time in your lives. God bless you!
    Avery Eddins
    Driggs, ID

  13. Peter is beautiful and has peaceful eyes. I love your promises. I feel your passion and the deep knowledge that comes from loss.

  14. Just last night as I was checking my calendar I realized what date it was for you. I immediately said a fervent prayer for your little family. I know these days and hours won't be easy but I pray the spirit will comfort you and you will feel Lucy very near as I know she is.

  15. Molly- First of all how do you looks so great so soon after having Peter? Second of all Peter is adorable and growing so fast already! He looks peaceful, happy and content. I am glad he is helping you through your sorrows. What a noble and valiant little man you have. Happy birthday to Vic! I can only imagine that it is hard to celebrate, knowing that Lucy's anniversary is approaching. I pray you will be able to get through that day with peace. I have been and will continue to pray for peace and comfort for you and Vic. I am so sorry about the loss of your friends. I am sure you will be able to be a great comfort to them. Lastly- thank you for your sweet note. I'm glad you got the little package. I pray that you will be able to get through the day and weekend, with peace.

  16. Your trip sounds wonderful! We are taking the girls to California in July and I can't wait to get pictures of us on the beach with them.

    I have been thinking about you a lot this week and knowing it must be such a difficult week for you. If you ever want to chat or need a shoulder to cry on, please come over.

    I can't wait to see you guys next weekend and finally meet Peter and have you meet Kate.

    Love you!

  17. Thanks for the hyperlink shoutout. Funny timing, I just barely posted the pics from his party on the family blog and then moved over here. Having a bday right smack dab in the middle of the anniversary week but be so unfathomable. But Vic is so tough, as are you. Hang in there you guys. And love the picture of the 3 of you!

  18. Happy birthday Vic! It's so amazing how fast time go's by the older you get. Honestly, I never thought I'd say that. And, Happy Mother's Day Molly! Peter already looks a bit rolly polly. cute cute cute!

  19. Thinking about you all today. Can't believe it's been a year.

  20. Molly and Vic-
    You don't know me, but I follow your blog. I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking and praying for you today. I know it is going to be a really tough day for you. Rely on the Lord and snuggle a little closer to your sweet Peter. I am so glad that you now have little Peter to hold in your arms, but I know he can't feel the hole that was left when Lucy went back to our Heavenly Father. Both of you are amazing and I love reading your blog. I hope that my prayers will help you a little today:)

  21. Vic,Peter, and Molly, I am thinking of your little angel Lucy today, May 22. Wishing you peace in your hearts.

  22. May 22, 2009... I know today will be very painful for you. You are in my prayers. I wish I had something profound to say, but I've never been where you are, and I don't know any magic potions. Your beautiful Lucy is with her Heavenly Father, she is safe and well. That's all I know for sure.
    Hope you have a blessed day.

  23. My heart goes out to you on this special day. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

  24. Happy Birthday last week Vic. Just FYI we're moving into our home in OC this week. Yeah! Fun to hear you were in LA this past week. We're living here now so let us know when you're in town next time.

    Erik Isakson


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